Sunday, September 16, 2012

Seeking present ...


I wondered endlessly about tomorrow until it wheeled to past
I’d wanted to brood over my present too, but it just could never last

I plugged my ears & closed my eyes to commemorate the forgotten
When actually I was only hoping for this pause to somehow shorten

For hours, days and months together I’ve dreaded an imaginary fear
Not knowing what to expect next, yet expecting the worst to appear

Unable to seek the inner light, my dreams have slowly lost their sight
Now I cringe at each call of chance, uncertain about my spirit to fight

Anchored down by inertia and countered by assumptions so strange
I can only wait for that time when things, would simply re-arrange


>>> under construction.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

'Julley' - My experience in/with Ladakh



















Miles and miles of ruminant tranquility & hours together of rutilant snow
Ensconced among esoteric peaks lies an alembic land not many still know

Each young pebble on its riverbed is a passage from a picturesque poetry
Each old grain of sand raised by the byrr, bows before its rugged ancestry

Every night an inky cover, conjures up a million charms from far and wide                                
Only to reveal the marmots and the magpies when the sunrays pull it aside

Adorned by austere ferns and flowers, numinous streams pleached to one
It hails the solitary spirit seeking enlightenment, into its ascetic kingdom

Every smile here is a precious treasure, to be gathered all along your way 
As you tread across this medieval moon land, greeting everyone a ‘Julley’!


Monday, March 19, 2012

Tryst with Bengaluru



During my first week in the garden city, I thought Bangalore was about rains. It was July and the clouds were more than generous. Irrespective of the time and place they poured. And since the rain water could not find their way through the maze of 'roadlets' to the nearby drainage, they would gather themselves in about every pot and hole that they could drop in. So you had them gossiping around your neighbourhoods, waiting at the bus stops, hanging around the malls and even protesting outside the state assemblies & city courts. Sometimes I wished we could talk so that I could ask my way home whenever (read usually) I felt lost.

But two more weeks and I found my opinion hinting towards an interesting species; the auto-drivers. Almost every third conversation with them ends up in a spat. No matter how close or far you want to go, you have to give them 'extraaA'. 'Meters are for the morons' seem to be their mantra. “Do not agree with the fare? No problem. Go find another one.” With close to a hundred thousand autos romping throughout the city, you will never be short of yet another anecdote as you reach home swearing to teach them a lesson one day.

Days flew by and soon I was a month old in Bangalore settling in our new apartment with a futon for the bed (a terrible option) and a big cardboard box for our centre table (not sure what was going in my mind at that time). Trying to strike a balance between eating out and cooking at home, I made numerous trips to various supermarkets. And that's when it occurred to me - Is Bangalore about supermarkets more than anything else?

They are there at every turn you take sitting on the fake leather/velvet couch of a hard bargained auto. Differentiated more by the name than the products they sell, you have the standalone ones on one end of the scale and the big brand chain outlets at the other. Assisting every newcomer like me to 'build' their homes only to pack up and move in a couple of years.

While I was thinking this, I wondered, 'But what about the trees'? Was it not what the city was known for? How could I miss them for so many days? I looked out of my auto to find'em when my sight banged on to a 10 by 10 ft flex printing, mounted on a pole, 20 ft above the ground. Three flavours of an orange drink caught my attention only to lose it to a similar mounting that tried to tempt me about a twin flavoured biscuit. In fact every few minutes I found myself resisting one or the other temptation.

It was only at the red signal when my sight screeched to a halt, my thoughts re surged. The city of trees was now the 'City of Hoardings'. No matter which route you take, they would be there standing tall, looking down upon you, waxing eloquently about luxurious apartments (on a once green patch of land), giving sound advice for your investments or inviting you to the next big event.

There were trees too but it required some amount of concentration to look at them without getting distracted. And when I did, I found myself thanking them for their unfailing efforts to keep a city, outpaced & choked by its own growth & development, 'breathing'.

It's been close to nine months in Bangalore now and I seem to have made peace with many of its elements (though I still don't want to believe that the roads wear a deserted look at 2200 hrs) if not adapted myself completely to them. The city has been a more of a challenge to live in compared to any other metro that I have lived in.

It has not only tested but polished my character, my patience and my sensitivity towards others. It has forced me to push my limits and at the same time, look for the positive in every scenario. I cannot thank it enough. But everyday as I hit the bed, I make a promise to myself and to Bengaluru that I will not, like thousands of 'IT migrants' settle here forever to feed on its fortunes, but will rather strive to give back as much as possible before saying good-bye to the city!

Monday, January 2, 2012

jharokha ...



‘Ma'am, can you see that beautiful piece of work out there? Those are called the’ jharokhas’.’ I was listening intently to my guide in the Amber fort during my short visit to Jaipur. ‘These jharokhas were meant for the queens and other ladies of the royal family. While the ladies could see through them, people on the other side could not. So they could easily watch the proceeding of the court. It was not considered proper for the women to sit out in public…..’ As he went on to show me other parts of the fort where similar ‘conveniences’ had been created for women folk, I could not stop wondering. 

What has changed since then? OR to put it better, has anything changed since then? Women had to keep themselves away from the public eyes then but even today when they step out they have to be wary of the same. 

Walk for five minutes along any road on Bangalore (the origin of my recent experiences) and you will surely be delighting someone, be it a 16 year old ‘dude’ or a 60 year old diabetic. The fact that you are a female is enough. Enough for them to do almost anything that will make you wish you weren’t one. 

Majority of them would break into a song. Till today, it never ceases to amaze me how they come up with the raunchiest of the song at just the right moment. They would dare not touch you nor have the courage to look straight in your eyes, so they prefer to use sound as a medium to get your attention. 

But some of them do have the guts. And the more the guts the creepier it gets for you (i.e. if you are a woman). Morse codes are sent using eyes, lips, fingers or even the most unthinkable parts. Here are a set of people with all the right skills to become an uncover spies for India. Blame it on our employment policies. Sheer waste of talent! 

The elite among these categories are the ones who can catch you off guard as you are trying to make your way in a crowded bus or market place, while they get away with a touch, brush or rub against you, shattering your personal space like a pack of cards. You frown at some, swear at some, shout at some and may be get hold of some. But it is always ‘some’. For the rest you blame your luck and then make peace with it. After all there are better things to do than teaching all the loose tongued species a lesson who somehow get the better of you despite you covering yourselves from head to toe, looking down while walking, avoiding dark & lonely lanes, traveling during day time.... the list is endless!

They have never changed and nor will they ever change. . So you need to change ‘YOUR’ ways, to keep away from those spilling over testosterones. Jharokhas were then and even today are, a way of life. Only now it is more symbolical. Today it points to a life that requires every woman to do ‘something’ that can keep off the attention of strangers (men) upon her.

P.S. - got this one while talking to my sweet friend Deepika! :)